| Reflection comes first...
Resolutions:
1) Humility - remembering that I deserve nothing and that I must be readily willing to give up people, money, and comfort.
2) Consistency in all areas.
3) Dependability in terms of keeping to my word and happily fulfilling obligations; availability
4) Learn to say no - to others and to myself.
5) Seek and pray for God's guidance concerning every major decision and problem, as well as do it.
6) Find peace and joy simply in God's providence, no matter what the circumstance.
7) Work on building real relationships with Dad and Mark to the point where I can feel comfortable talking to them about my life.
8) Continually push myself out of my comfort bubble, in building relationships and saying what needs to be said.
9) Learn to love in its purest meaning.
10) My Utmost for His Highest.
He who pursues righteousness and love
finds life, prosperity, and honor.
Proverbs 21:21
These are from my post made on January 9, 2009. Needless to say, I failed in every area. That doesn't surprise me, though; what makes me sad to look back on are the times I stopped trying. I'm probably going to end up doing resolutions again for 2010, whether or not they change and whether or not I post them. But that'll come later, sometime on or after New Year's... not sure how Urbana will affect them.
Even though each one passes by so quickly, a year is a long time. We go through 4 seasons of changing weather, shifting relationships, life-altering experiences and discoveries... altogether, a whole lot of life. I'm really grateful for everything I've been so far this year (and all my other years). DCCYC has been decreasingly impacting on me each summer I went as I've realized the fruitlessness of spiritual highs and whimsical professions. At the same time, though, I've taken away things that have helped me grow gradually over the years. Not that I don't think it's possible; I've had singular experiences that have affected me in amazing ways that I look back on for reminders and for encouragement. I've just stopped anticipating them.
I don't really expect much from Urbana, but I'm not sure if that's a good thing. Everyone I'm going with seems really psyched about it, and I used to be too since I've been set on going for the past three years, but the excitement about being inspired isn't there anymore. I am looking forward to the people I'll meet and the stories I'll hear, getting to see how God has worked in and changed people's lives from around the world in his manifold ways. I'm looking forward to praising the God who brings everyone together regardless of different ethnicity, experiences, upbringings. I'm looking forward to a huge New Year's celebration with thousands of people.
I plan to go with an open mind, though. There's a chance I'll find my calling in life at Urbana, direction on what to do in college, lifelong accountability friendships, maybe a rekindle in my relationship with God... but there's a chance that I won't. I hope to be ready for both chances. |
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The Birth of Jesus - the unabridged christmas story in lego form
The Brick Testament
hehe i love referring back to this site for my bible lessons
my sister came back from urbana 6 years ago having lost her voice from singing her heart out at urbana. i'm leaving for urbana with an already sore throat and starting to get sick. =/ hopefully it goes away. but either way, it won't keep me from singing.
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| just got back from houston today (or yesterday i guess). it was really fun!! crashed three people's houses... went to china town 4 times... ate lots of good food... went christmas shopping... watched lots of tv shows/movies... played video games for the first time in many months... visited HCC... good stuff. house hopping is really weird, though; i feel like i'm imposing all the time. :O can't imagine doing it for a whole summer.
meet whoop! that's my elepy's name. =) he was justin's christmas present to me and obviously likes pokemon.
he's much cuter in person.
anyway, it sort of feels like break just started for me since i just got home. i haven't even seen my family yet. ): tomorrowww!!! (or later today rather) hehe. =D
played cards for about 5 hours upon getting home today hahah. you know the gang's back when you pick up the phone and the first thing you hear is "do you wanna?" rather than any greeting or question of how you've been. same old same old. :P
a few things on the to do list:
-finish veronica mars season 1
-ohana time
-laundry from college haha
-finish christmas presents i've been working on (+ think of what to get for the people i'm missing >.<)
-christmas cards
-urbana
-work on project from months ago
-resolutions? mayyybe
-keep up with/catch up with ppl
-pray hard
..yeah this list is incomplete, but it's the stuff on my mind right now. (: ttfn! |
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| kara go study. stop checking xanga. |
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| I'm not used to putting talks or bl[a]gging or just quality time with people on hold for more than a day. And now that it's finally less than 24 hours away before the end of my crazy loaded week, it's harder than ever to resist. What a new discipline. =/ |
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